How tiring it is, to find yourself in old grooves without trying.
How tiring to find that I'm back in this town talking about the same things, being the same person.
It's true, you can reinvent yourself sometimes if you break out of an old rut.
I am trying to - but I'm still coming up against people expecting me to be one way or the other.
I'm finally talking to people again and they're telling me what to do, again...like I don't know.
I'm not lost, I'm sad. Why is it so hard for other people to watch that?
Isn't that why I made such an effort not to show anyone for so long?
I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired...isn't that how the saying goes?
I want new things in my life to talk about, new challenges, less of the old hurts.
I wish I knew how to be better at that...I get so jealous that other people have that skill and I have to work so hard at it.
Jealousy...things I can do without in my life.
I'll have to remember that another time. Another place.
2 comments:
Relationships can be such a pain in the arse sometimes but the alternative is usually worse.
There are 1001 cliche's about dealing with break ups and it sounds like you've been hearing most of them.
Opinions are like arseholes - everyone has got one, and it sounds like you've been getting lots of opinions too.
So how about one of each from someone who has been in the same boat but is now in a much happier place.
Here goes..........
Cliche' = For those that expect you to be one way or the other:
Those that matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter.
Opinion = Do it your way and only take shit if it will help your kids.
Things will get better (that's not another opinion or cliche', its a fact).
This rowan is very cool but delete the Google Bomb below it or you'll just encourage them.
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